Oh God. Bored. Bored of me.
Not gonna be me anymore. I am gonna be skinny. I am gonna smoke and drink and socialize. I am going to draw and paint and live in art galleries. I am just going to be anyone other than me. I will be happy. I will be smart. I will work hard at school and keep my mouth shut. I will do my homework. I will read books and listen to music. I will not eat. I will not be a bitch. I will be happy. I will be happy.
I won't be such a miserable disappointment.
I will not cut.