Oh God. Bored. Bored of me.
Not gonna be me anymore. I am gonna be skinny. I am gonna smoke and drink and socialize. I am going to draw and paint and live in art galleries. I am just going to be anyone other than me. I will be happy. I will be smart. I will work hard at school and keep my mouth shut. I will do my homework. I will read books and listen to music. I will not eat. I will not be a bitch. I will be happy. I will be happy.
I won't be such a miserable disappointment.
I will not cut.
You should always be yourself.
ReplyDeleteBe skinny if you want, but don't go so skinny that people worry about you, because they will.
Smoke what? Dope, cigarettes? Only do dope if you're in the right frame of mind. Trust me on that one, pleeeease. Socialising isn't everything.
Don't keep your mouth shut at school, that'll make it fucking boring.
You will eat.
You will be a bitch - you're a girl? It's what we're born to be ;)
Nobody is a disappointment, mate. Don't forget that.
When I was diagnosed with cancer, my doctor said.. "I want you to bare in mind that the most important person in your life.. Is you. You get where you want to be, and you do what you want to do, not what anybody else wants you to do"
Just bear it in mind, it helps :)
Wow. You are so nice it's amazing.
ReplyDeleteI don't even know who I am, I am too afraid of being forgotten.
Skinny doesn't matter anymore anyway. Smoke cigarettes, I mean I already do, but still. I don't do drugs, not dope. I have given up one socialising, I am just continuing going out alone. I mean, if I don't I just get in trouble, and hurt people, and get hated more. I need to stop talking. Less of a bitch, but it is just so fun.
I don't o anythingright. And everything in my life is fucking perfect.
You are so amazing. Thank you so much. :)